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Still haven’t gone to the grocery store (even as I’m sitting here writing this on 3/8) and yet we managed not to starve. Funny how necessity is the mother of invention. Now it’s almost become a game…Let’s See Just How Bare We Can Get the Fridge and Cupboards Before Going Grocery Shopping. I don’t think it will last too much longer.

Breakfast – Chocolate Shakeology made with 8oz water, 4oz 1% organic milk, ice and I honestly don’t remember if I put in any flavoring. That’s what happens when you don’t write or type stuff right away.

AM Snack – 1/2 P90X Cafe Mocha protein bar

Lunch – 6oz tofu, 2 large celery stalks, 1/4c chopped onion, 2Tbs Soy Vay Veri Veri Teriyaki, 1Tbs light soy sauce, 1tsp oil, 3/4c cooked short grain rice, 1/2tsp sesame seeds and 1 brownie from the batch I made the night before

PM Snack – I honestly don’t remember. Oh wait, I think it was 1/4c hummus eaten with a spoon out of the container

Dinner – 6oz flounder seasoned with salt, pepper, thyme and paprika, 2c iceberg lettuce (can’t believe the half a head was enough for everyone) 1/3 of a Roma tomato, 3oz yam, 1 Pillsbury biscuit, 1Tbs vidalia onion dressing

Late Snack – I know I ate something, but again, can’t remember what it was. I do know that it wasn’t Peppermint Patties because those are all gone now. Oh yeah, it was croutons, but I don’t know how many because I wasn’t counting.

So by estimating the croutons and hoping I didn’t forget anything, I came up with total calories of 1588 and burned 3012.

Never heard of a haystack? Well, it’s amazing. Not just because it tastes good, but it’s fast and easy to make. Plus, the kids love it and it can be easily customized to please even the pickiest eaters.

Breakfast – Chocolate Shakeology made with 4oz water, 8oz Blue Diamond Original almond milk, a little vanilla extract, some cinnamon and a couple ice cubes

AM Snack – 3 slices turkey bacon, 2 mandarin oranges

Lunch – 2 slices whole grain white bread, 6 extra-thin slices turkey, a little yellow mustard and 4 dill pickle slices (Yes, I know I said I was going to start using the meal planner to change things up, but I actually wrote that the morning after which was the same day I was eating this), 1 small Fuji apple

PM Snack – P90X Wildberry protein bar

Dinner – Haystacks! 1 1/2oz Fritos (you can use something healthier, but it’s not the same), 1c refried beans, 2c shredded iceberg lettuce (same thing as with the Fritos), 1 diced Roma tomato ($2.49/lb!! it’s just wrong), 5 sliced black olives, 2Tbs light sour cream, 2Tbs packaged guacmole (not my first choice by any means, but there were no ripe avocados at the store) 2Tbs salsa, 1oz shredded Mexican cheese blend

There are so many variations on this. Some people like to use chili instead of refried beans. Some people add Spanish rice. I prefer diced avocado when possible, then fresh guacamole, then store-bought as a last resort. I also love diced onions or green onions, but I’m the only one so I didn’t bother. Cilantro is good, too. Don’t like sour cream? My husband likes ranch dressing on his. So many options. You just have to use your imagination.

Dessert – 6oz Yoplait Light Key Lime Pie right after dinner, then later I had 6 mini Peppermint Patties

Total calories – 2191, Protein – 100 grams, Carbs – 305 grams, Fat – 76 grams, Fiber – 42 grams

Protein 17%, Carbs 53%, Fat 30%

Total calories burned – 3419, deficit of 1228 🙂

When dealing with old habits, I’m learning that you must constantly be on guard. Just when you think you’ve got the situation under control and stop putting much thought into what you’re doing you can find yourself right back at square one. That was me today.

Breakfast – Chocolate Shakeology made with 8oz water, 4oz almond milk, a couple drops coconut extract, a little sugar-free caramel syrup (the kind they put in coffee drinks) and ice

AM Snack – P90X Wildberry protein bar

Post-workout – Results and Recovery drink

Lunch – 2 slices whole grain white bread, 2Tbs hummus, 8 slices cucumber, 3 leaves Romaine lettuce, 4 slices peperoncinis and a 5oz yam

PM Snack – 1 banana, 1 can Campbell’s Chicken Noodle Soup with 25% less sodium (I was in the mood for noodles)

Dinner – 3c Romaine lettuce, 1Tbs Wishbone Italian dressing, 4oz fettucini, 3/4c Prego Heart Smart Traditional sauce, 3 crescent rolls, 15 slices turkey pepperoni, 1tsp grated Parmesan (I rolled the pepperoni and Parmesan up in the crescent rolls before baking)

Turns out I was REALLY in the mood for noodles. Unfortunately, little things add up and I kept eating a couple more bites of this and a bit more of that and before I knew it I had finished off the remaining pasta, the last two Thin Mint cookies, a good handful of Crunch ‘n Munch and who knows what else. I stopped paying attention until I realized I was REALLY full. I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m in a food rut. I’ve kind of been eating the same things for lunch and dinner and part of my brain wants something different to feel satisfied. Variety is the spice of life, right? So I’m going to take advantage of the custom meal planner on the fitness community site I’m a member of (use the tools available…that’s using your noodle!) and find some new ideas for meals. Plus, it lets me print out a grocery list which is even better!

Don’t know how many calories, etc., but I did burn 2998 so I’m thinking I at least broke even.

Ok, not really. When it comes down to it, unless someone literally has a gun to our head we have the power to make our own choices whether it be what we eat or not or any decision we face. Time to take responsibility. However, he did provide some extra temptation which I hold him fully accountable for. He could’ve eaten all those Girl Scout cookies BEFORE he got home, you know? 😉 Actually, I didn’t do too badly today. MUCH better than the past few days for sure.

Breakfast – Chocolate Shakeology made with 8oz water, 2oz Trader Joe’s Organic Vanana yogurt, ice (seems the kids really like this one and requested it again, but I reduced the amount of yogurt because I found the first one a bit too tangy)

AM Snack – P90X Chocolate Peanut Butter protein bar

Lunch – 2 97% fat-free Hebrew National hot dogs, 1Tbs Simply Heinz ketchup, 1 1/2c whole wheat potato gnocchi, 1/2c Prego Heart Smart Traditional Sauce

PM Snack – 6oz Yoplait Light Key Lime Pie yogurt, 1 banana

Dinner – 5oz wild salmon, broiled and brushed with teriyaki sauce, 1 1/2c frozen, French green beans sauted with a little oil, soy sauce and seasoned rice vinegar, 3c romaine tossed with the sesame ginger dressing I made with soy sauce, seasoned rice vinegar, garlic, ground ginger, sugar, sesame oil and a canola/corn oil blend, and just 1 Samoa cookie

PM Snack #1 – 9oz package of edamame with pods

PM Snack #2 which would’ve been avoided if my husband had let me go to bed when I wanted to or if I hd simply chosen not to eat it (See? I’m taking responsibility.) 2/3c rainbow sherbet, 12 Four Cheese CHEEZ-IT crackers (yes, I counted)

Total Calories – 1960, Protein – 113 grams, Carbs – 306 grams, Fat – 39 grams, Fiber – 36 grams

Protein 22%, Carbs 60%, Fat 18%

Total calories burned (only walked today, rest day for ChaLEAN Extreme) 2720, DEFICIT 🙂 of 760

This morning I decided that trying to measure, count and weigh everything I’m eating is just too much for me in my current mental state so I’m posting what I ate, maybe with approximate amounts. I’ll be back to normal soon enough. Just trying to make this work without going crazy. Just like with working out, sometimes you have to modify. Doing something is better than doing nothing.

Breakfast – Chocolate Shakeology made with 8oz water, 4oz 1% organic milk, 2 ice cubes (let the kids pick the flavor and once again they went with plain chocolate)

AM Snack/Post-workout!! YAY!! – 1 scoop P90X Results and Recovery Drink

Really Late Lunch – some yakisoba noodles, maybe 2c, with about 10 broccoli florets, 10 or so slices zucchini, um…12? slivers of onion, 10ish teriyaki meatball quarters, and enough teriyaki sauce to make it taste good

PM Snack/Dinner I guess – 2 slices whole grain white bread, probably 6 extra thin slices turkey, 1 slice colby jack cheese, however much mustard my son put on for me, and somewhere between 1 and 2Tbs mayo (the good, full-fat kind…none of that fat-free crap that shouldn’t even be called mayo) and a dark chocolate cherry healthy granola bar that didn’t really taste that great.

Dessert – some of the brownies I made for my family (as if I was going to make brownies and not eat ANY…maybe on another day when my brain is functioning properly, but today) and I really do mean some, not everything I didn’t give them. There’s still around half left in the pan. That’s a 9×13 pan and a mini spatula, not some gigantic pan.

See? Also had THREE mini Peppermint Patties (not 6 or 9 or 12) and a cup of coffee made with Trader Joe’s Vanilla non-dairy creamer because I made it for my husband, but he went to sleep instead and I hate wasting things. Am I the only one who gets really thirsty after drinking coffee? Right now, at 8:51pm, I don’t think I could eat another bite, but I feel like I could drink a swimming pool…without chlorine. No, that would be gross either way. Forget the swimming pool. I’m just really, really thirsty.

Total calories – I dunno, Protein, Carbs, Fat, Fiber – also ??

Total calories burned as of 8:59pm – 2073 and will probably burn another 300ish just from being alive. I’ll update if it ends up being much different.

If yesterday was an epic fail, then today was only marginally better, but at least I figured out why. I said I felt like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde and today was basically a repeat. I’ve come to the conclusion that he actually just had PMS. If you’re one of those guys who still thinks women just use PMS as an excuse for acting insane, sorry, but I think you’re the one that’s insane. I have no desire to feel like I have almost no control over myself, whether it’s with eating or attitude. About the time I was eating my 6th mini peppermint patty I put the pieces together. My general unsettled feeling, irritability and insatiable appetite plus the date equals a serious hormonal imbalance and it’s a force to be reckoned with. So here we go again…

Breakfast – Chocolate Shakeology made with 8oz water, 4oz 1% organic milk, 1Tbs peanut butter, ice

AM Snack – P90X Chocolate Peanut Butter protein bar

Lunch – 2/3c Morningstar Farms recipe crumbles, 1tsp olive oil, 2c diced zucchini, 3/4c Prego Heart Smart Traditional sauce, 1 1/2c whole wheat potato gnocchi (I took several photos, but none turned out looking very appetizing even though it was really good.)

PM Snack – 1/3 of a Pink Lady apple, 1/2 slice crushed wheat sourdough, 1/2 slice colby jack cheese, 2 slices extra thin turkey

Dinner – 1 banana which I ate while making actual dinner because I felt like I was going to eat everything in sight again, 2 jalapeno chicken sausages, 2c frozen green beans cooked with Pam and sprinkled with Kosher salt, 2 1/2 Tbs. light sour cream that I dipped the sausage slices in, 3Tbs salsa, 1oz stoneground yellow corn tortillas

Dessert/Train wreck – 3 mini Peppermint Patties, 3 more mini Peppermint Patties (It was here I realized I was PMSing and decided to just go with it instead of stressing myself out more and beating myself up. Not sure if it was a good choice, but it was the one I made. It is what it is. Next time, I’m going to have another Shakeology for lunch because it’s the only thing that helps me deal with cravings and I need all the help I can get on days like this.) 6 Hot n’ Spicy chicken wing sections, 3 more mini Peppermint Patties, about 20 Fresh Gourmet croutons, popcorn (probably around 6c, not really sure) and finally, a peanut butter and jelly sandwich my dear, sweet son made for me because he had no idea how much I had already eaten. I couldn’t bring myself to refuse his gift and figured it couldn’t be that much worse than what I’d already done.

What’s crazy is that there used to be times when I ate all…day…long. No doubt racking up 5,000+ calories and getting zero exercise. So, I guess I’ve made some progress. That’ my attempt at being positive despite my overall negative attitude with will pass in a few days. It is what it is.

Total calories – 3364, Protein – 148 grams, Carbs – 459 grams, Fat – 118 grams, Fiber – 53 grams

Protein 17%, Carbs 52%, Fat 31%

Doesn’t really look like I did better than yesterday, but I actually burned more calories so the bottom line was slightly better.

Total calories burned 3175, surplus of 189

The kids had a snow day today so we decided they should watch a documentary with the hope that they would learn something. After browsing through Netflix for a while we chose Super Size Me. I’ve always wanted to see it and we’ve been making some healthy changes to our eating habits so it seemed like a good choice. If you’ve seen it, I’m sure you can understand that the kids have no desire to eat at McDonald’s anymore. If you haven’t, you should. It’s pretty interesting and disturbing. It was time for lunch when it was over and I found myself desparately in need of some veggies. And another big shout out to Trader Joe’s for supplying the world (well, some parts of it anyway) with minimally processed, casing-free jalapeno chicken sausage.

Breakfast – P90X Cafe Mocha protein bar (took my walk early and the kids weren’t ready for breakfast before I left so I switched it up – heaven forbid I wash the blender twice)

AM Snack – Chocolate Shakeology made with 8oz water, 4oz 1% organic milk, a little vanilla extract and exactly 1 1/2 drops peppermint extract (3 drops total in the blender – I make a double batch so I get a full serving and kids each get half a serving)

Lunch – 4c romaine lettuce, 1 jalapeno chicken sausage, 1oz crumbled feta, some peperoncini slices (didn’t count them), 1Tbs Hidden Valley Ranch dressing mixed with 2tsp Taco Bell Restaurant Sauce and a little water

PM Snack – 1/4c hummus, 1oz Trader Joe’s Stoneground Tortilla chips, 1 banana

Dinner – 1 Boca Flame Grilled burger, 1 slice colby jack cheese, 1 slice crushed wheat sourdough bread from Trader Joe’s, 1Tbs Simply Heinz ketchup (the kind without high fructose corn syrup), 1tsp yellow mustard, 1c peas, 2 wedges Weight Watchers garlic & herb cheese, 6oz Yoplait Light Blueberry Patch yogurt

Now, you’d think I would’ve been satisfied with all that, but no. I still felt like I needed something. In hindsight it was probably water, but I read it as hunger. So I had a bowl of Cheerios. Still wanted more. Two pickle spears. Didn’t cut it. Decided to just have another protein bar, Chocolate Fudge this time, knowing it would definitely fill me up and make me feel like I’d had “dessert”. After the bar, I did feel full and started cleaning up and making dinner for my husband who had just come home. I found one snack size Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup left in a bag of assorted chocolates that I’d managed to ignore all week when I picked up the bag to throw it away. “Might as well eat it,” I thought. And I did. After all, how much harm could one little piece of candy do?

It was like a switch flipped on in my head and suddenly, even though it had completely registered that I was full, I just wanted to eat everything in sight. As I pulled the hummus back out of the fridge I asked myself what in the world I thought I was doing. Then I told myself that I just wouldn’t post anything I ate after the protein bar. I rationlized that no one would ever know and I didn’t have to tell everything if I didn’t want to. It was my blog after all. I ate several spoonfuls of the hummus right out of the container, chugged some apple juice from the container, and crunched my way through a handful of croutons.

Did I stop there? No. The spicy beef and broccoli I was making for my husband was done so I had some of that, too, with rice. It was somewhere around the apple juice that I noticed I was having a little trouble breathing. That used to happen a lot when I would sit up at night eating ice cream straight from the carton. That shortness of breath usually turned into a full-on asthma attack and by the time I downed the beef and broccoli that’s where I was. Ugh. And, I hadn’t done my workout yet so I didn’t even had that option for burning off some of those extra calories. Double ugh.

I was so annoyed and disturbed that I had done that to myself again and at how easily I crossed that line. Like Dr. Jeckyll and Mr. Hyde. One minute I was in control, carefully tracking what and how much I was eating and the next minute I totally lost it. It’s like walking a tightrope. You’re so careful to stay right on track so you don’t fall and it becomes easier as you form new habits, but just when you think you’ve got it you lose your focus and crash.

When I woke up this morning I knew I had to post this, as vulnerable as it makes me feel, because the whole point of sharing my food journal is to be accountable. If I left out the bad parts I’d be lying to everyone else, but most importantly myself. So here it is and today is a new day with a chance to get back up on that tightrope and do it all over again, but better because I’ve learned from the experience.

Total Calories – at least 2900 (can’t really be sure, but I tried to account for everything), Protein – 167 grams, Carbs – 379 grams, Fat – 92 grams (YIKES!), Fiber – 38 grams

Protein 22%, Carbs 50%, Fat 28%

Total calories burned – 2567, SURPLUS (ugh!) of at least 333

The great thing about Costco is that you can get some fantastic deals, but it can also mean having huge amounts of just a few things on hand. With the Great Snowstorm of 2011 they were predicting, I knew I’d better get some more food or we’d be eating pretty much nothing but edamame, popcorn, sliced turkey and Cheerios for the next few days. That’s where Trader Joe’s comes in. If you don’t have one where you live, consider moving. You can get the best stuff there for such a great price and you can usually get in and out quickly. Besides most of the food we had for dinner, I picked up some frozen mango puree, among other things, which is a key ingredient in my favorite Greenberry Shakeology recipe. I’m sure you’ll be seeing it soon.

Breakfast – Chocolate Shakeology made with 8oz water, 4oz 1% milk (always organic by the way), a little vanilla extract and a bit of cinnamon

AM Snack – P90X Wildberry protein bar (decided to change things up a bit – usually leave this flavor for the kids because it’s their favorites)

Lunch – leftover 6in turkey sub from our Februany feast the night before – it was a delightful discovery as I really didn’t feel like making anything, 6c Smart Pop popcorn sprinkled with garlic granules and cayenne pepper

PM Snack/Post workout – running out the door to take the kids to karate I completely forgot my recovery drink (which I can feel today :/ ) Grabbed a slice of whole grain white bread and 6 extra thin slices of turkey and ate it on the way to the car. I wasn’t going to have a repeat of the pizza and cake incident. Speaking of which, it seems I wasn’t the only one dealing with a frosting addiction. One of my best friends recently made a cake for a birthday party and had thrown the leftover frosting away (in a sealed container) which she later dug out of the trash and ate with a spoon. Yes, she did give me permission to disclose this information. 🙂

Dinner – 3oz seasoned turbot (one of Chef Ramsey’s favorites and I can see why), 1c broccoli, 1/2c zucchini, 1/4c yellow onion, 1tsp olive oil, 1/4 cube chicken boullion, 1 large slice cracked wheat sourdough bread, 1tsp Smart Balance original spread

Dessert – (also thanks to Trader Joe’s) 10 TJ’s multigrain pretzel sticks, 2Tbs Rondelle Cranberry Orange spread (only $.99 for an 8oz tub), 1 mandarin orange

Total Calories – 1735, Protein – 112 grams, Carbs – 220 grams, Fat – 52 grams, Fiber – 30 grams

Protein 24%, Carbs 49%, Fat 27%

Total calories burned – 3307, deficit of 1572

Pretty typical day…nothing special. Took advantage of Subway’s $5 for any kind of footlong deal since we were out doing the basketball practice thing when it was time for dinner.

Breakfast – Chocolate Shakeology with 8oz water, 4oz milk, a little vanilla extract and a couple drops of coconut extract

AM Snack – P90X Chocolate Peanut Butter protein bar

Lunch – 3oz Barilla Plus angel hair pasta, 3/4c Prego Heart Smart Traditional sauce (just remembered I was going to have some cucumber and Italian dressing, too, but I completely forgot)

PM Snack – forgot to have one because we ran out the door to basketball, but we ate dinner earlier than usual

Dinner – footlong Subway Gardenburger sub on whole wheat with all the veggies except cucumber (love cucumbers, just not on subs) and American cheese, light mayo and spicy mustard

Late Snack – 1/2 of the Gardenburger my son pulled of his sub because it had red peppers in it (good grief), 6oz Yoplait Light Peach Harvest, 10 Fresh Gourmet Roasted Garlic Focaccia croutons

Total Calories – 1919, Protein – 96 grams, Carbs – 286 grams, Fat – 46 grams, Fiber – 35 grams

Protein 20%, Carbs 58%, Fat 22%

Total calories burned – 3455, 1546 deficit

I knew I’d be faced with pizza and cake at the end of the day so I tried to keep my meals light the rest of the day. I even skipped my afternoon snack. Big mistake. Because I had done ChaLEAN Extreme Burn It Off and Recharge in the afternoon, I was famished by the time the pizza was served. When it was all said and done I had eaten basically the same amount of calories that I burned for the day so it could’ve been worse, but I normally eat 1,000 – 1,500 calories less than what I burn. We’ll see how it all turns out when I weigh myself at the end of the week. Last week was a great success with 5.6 lbs gone. : ) I’ll be happy if I lose anything this week.

Breakfast – Chocolate Shakeology with 8oz water, 4oz 1% milk, 1/4tsp cinnamon, ice

AM Snack – P90X Chocolate Peanut Butter protein bar (they’re quite addictive, but really good for you!)

Lunch – Sandwich made with 2 slices Dave’s Killer Bread, 2Tbs hummus, 1 Weight Watchers Swiss cheese wedge, 2 large leaves romaine lettuce, 3in or so of an English cucumber, sliced; 1 banana; 2 mandarin oranges

PM Snack – nothin’

Dinner – Here’s where it gets bad…5 thin slices of pizza with black olives and pineapple (my son’s favorite) and 3 thin slices of cheese pizza (so the equivalent of 4 regular sized slices from a large pizza); not 1, but 2 slices of chocolate cake which was eaten at home later because there was no way I could’ve eaten anything else right after all that pizza

Late Snack – I’ve been good about avoiding eating late ever since I’ve started posting my food journal, but not this time. Here’s the ugly…my husband had left a good bit of frosting from his slice of cake uneaten and when I discovered it there all lonely on the plate as I was cleaning up I ate it without much thought other than, “Well, I guess I’m going to have to count this, too.” The unbelievable thing is that even after the extra frosting I actually considered eating a snack sized bag of M&Ms. I can say, though, that not eating it was major progress. I thought about how I would feel if I did and decided it wasn’t worth it. Whoo hoo!

Total Calories – 2439, Protein – 113 grams, Carbs – 371 grams, Fat 68 grams, Fiber 27 grams

Protein 18%, Carbs 58%, Fat 24%