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The kids had a snow day today so we decided they should watch a documentary with the hope that they would learn something. After browsing through Netflix for a while we chose Super Size Me. I’ve always wanted to see it and we’ve been making some healthy changes to our eating habits so it seemed like a good choice. If you’ve seen it, I’m sure you can understand that the kids have no desire to eat at McDonald’s anymore. If you haven’t, you should. It’s pretty interesting and disturbing. It was time for lunch when it was over and I found myself desparately in need of some veggies. And another big shout out to Trader Joe’s for supplying the world (well, some parts of it anyway) with minimally processed, casing-free jalapeno chicken sausage.

Breakfast – P90X Cafe Mocha protein bar (took my walk early and the kids weren’t ready for breakfast before I left so I switched it up – heaven forbid I wash the blender twice)

AM Snack – Chocolate Shakeology made with 8oz water, 4oz 1% organic milk, a little vanilla extract and exactly 1 1/2 drops peppermint extract (3 drops total in the blender – I make a double batch so I get a full serving and kids each get half a serving)

Lunch – 4c romaine lettuce, 1 jalapeno chicken sausage, 1oz crumbled feta, some peperoncini slices (didn’t count them), 1Tbs Hidden Valley Ranch dressing mixed with 2tsp Taco Bell Restaurant Sauce and a little water

PM Snack – 1/4c hummus, 1oz Trader Joe’s Stoneground Tortilla chips, 1 banana

Dinner – 1 Boca Flame Grilled burger, 1 slice colby jack cheese, 1 slice crushed wheat sourdough bread from Trader Joe’s, 1Tbs Simply Heinz ketchup (the kind without high fructose corn syrup), 1tsp yellow mustard, 1c peas, 2 wedges Weight Watchers garlic & herb cheese, 6oz Yoplait Light Blueberry Patch yogurt

Now, you’d think I would’ve been satisfied with all that, but no. I still felt like I needed something. In hindsight it was probably water, but I read it as hunger. So I had a bowl of Cheerios. Still wanted more. Two pickle spears. Didn’t cut it. Decided to just have another protein bar, Chocolate Fudge this time, knowing it would definitely fill me up and make me feel like I’d had “dessert”. After the bar, I did feel full and started cleaning up and making dinner for my husband who had just come home. I found one snack size Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup left in a bag of assorted chocolates that I’d managed to ignore all week when I picked up the bag to throw it away. “Might as well eat it,” I thought. And I did. After all, how much harm could one little piece of candy do?

It was like a switch flipped on in my head and suddenly, even though it had completely registered that I was full, I just wanted to eat everything in sight. As I pulled the hummus back out of the fridge I asked myself what in the world I thought I was doing. Then I told myself that I just wouldn’t post anything I ate after the protein bar. I rationlized that no one would ever know and I didn’t have to tell everything if I didn’t want to. It was my blog after all. I ate several spoonfuls of the hummus right out of the container, chugged some apple juice from the container, and crunched my way through a handful of croutons.

Did I stop there? No. The spicy beef and broccoli I was making for my husband was done so I had some of that, too, with rice. It was somewhere around the apple juice that I noticed I was having a little trouble breathing. That used to happen a lot when I would sit up at night eating ice cream straight from the carton. That shortness of breath usually turned into a full-on asthma attack and by the time I downed the beef and broccoli that’s where I was. Ugh. And, I hadn’t done my workout yet so I didn’t even had that option for burning off some of those extra calories. Double ugh.

I was so annoyed and disturbed that I had done that to myself again and at how easily I crossed that line. Like Dr. Jeckyll and Mr. Hyde. One minute I was in control, carefully tracking what and how much I was eating and the next minute I totally lost it. It’s like walking a tightrope. You’re so careful to stay right on track so you don’t fall and it becomes easier as you form new habits, but just when you think you’ve got it you lose your focus and crash.

When I woke up this morning I knew I had to post this, as vulnerable as it makes me feel, because the whole point of sharing my food journal is to be accountable. If I left out the bad parts I’d be lying to everyone else, but most importantly myself. So here it is and today is a new day with a chance to get back up on that tightrope and do it all over again, but better because I’ve learned from the experience.

Total Calories – at least 2900 (can’t really be sure, but I tried to account for everything), Protein – 167 grams, Carbs – 379 grams, Fat – 92 grams (YIKES!), Fiber – 38 grams

Protein 22%, Carbs 50%, Fat 28%

Total calories burned – 2567, SURPLUS (ugh!) of at least 333

Thought it would be fun to post my progress with ChaLEAN Extreme and maybe start some friendly competition. Here are my stats for the Week 1 and Week 2 of the Burn Phase: 

                                                                                               Week 1

Burn Circuit 1                                                                         lbs/reps

  • Sumo Squat with Hip Lift                                                 10/12
  • Lunge with Posterior Fly                                                  10/12
  • Push-up with Leg Lift                                                      6 knees
  • Dead Lift with Posterior Fly                                              5/12
  • Lunge with Core Rotation                                                15/12
  • Bench Press and Leg Lower                                              10/12 (6 legs)
  • Squat with Side Bend                                                        10/12+3x
  • Forward Lean Lunge with DBL Arm Post Fly                      5/12+3x
  • Chest Fly with Hip Lift                                                      10/12+3x

                                                                                               Week 2

Burn Circuit 1                                                                         lbs/reps

  • Sumo Squat with Hip Lift                                                 15/12
  • Lunge with Posterior Fly                                                  10/12
  • Push-up with Leg Lift                                                      8 knees
  • Dead Lift with Posterior Fly                                              10/12
  • Lunge with Core Rotation                                                20/12
  • Bench Press and Leg Lower                                              15/12 (6 legs)
  • Squat with Side Bend                                                        15/12+3x
  • Forward Lean Lunge with DBL Arm Post Fly                      10/12+3x
  • Chest Fly with Hip Lift                                                      15/12+3x

                                                                                               Week 1

Burn Circuit 2                                                                         lbs/reps

  • Sumo Squat with Bicep Curl                                              15/12
  • Lunge with One Arm Tricep Extention                              10/12
  • Dead Lift Row                                                                    10/12
  • Sumo Squat with Overhead Tricep Extension                    15/11
  • Dead Lift with Double Row                                                15/10
  • Bowler’s Lunge with Single Arm Row                                 15/10
  • Bicep Curls with Abductor Balance                                    10/12+3x
  • Forward Lean Lunge with Double Row                               15/12+3x
  • Triple Threat Push-ups                                                     9+3x

                                                                                               Week 2

Burn Circuit 2                                                                         lbs/reps

  • Sumo Squat with Bicep Curl                                              15.75/12
  • Lunge with One Arm Tricep Extention                              10.75/12
  • Dead Lift Row                                                                   15/12
  • Sumo Squat with Overhead Tricep Extension                    20/10
  • Dead Lift with Double Row                                               15/10
  • Bowler’s Lunge with Single Arm Row                                15/11
  • Bicep Curls with Abductor Balance                                   15/12+3x
  • Forward Lean Lunge with Double Row                              15.75/12+3x
  • Triple Threat Push-ups                                                     9+3x

                                                                                               Week 1

Burn Circuit 3                                                                         lbs/reps

  • Sumo Squat with Overhead Press                                     10/12
  • Lunge with Calf Raise                                                       15/12
  • Squat with Lateral Raise                                                   7.5/12
  • Lunge with Frontal Press                                                  10/12
  • Squat with Calf Raise                                                       20/12
  • Sumo Squat with Delt Raises                                           10/12
  • Squat with Double Overhead Press                                  10/12+3x
  • Lunge with Lateral Raise                                                  5/12+3x
  • Sumo Squat with Calf Raise                                             10/12+3x

                                                                                               Week 2

Burn Circuit 3                                                                         lbs/reps

  • Sumo Squat with Overhead Press                                     15/11
  • Lunge with Calf Raise                                                       15/12
  • Squat with Lateral Raise                                                   10/12
  • Lunge with Frontal Press                                                  15/12
  • Squat with Calf Raise                                                       15/12
  • Sumo Squat with Delt Raises                                           15/12
  • Squat with Double Overhead Press                                  15/10+3x
  • Lunge with Lateral Raise                                                  10/12+3x
  • Sumo Squat with Calf Raise                                             15/12+3x

Back on Track

Ever had one of those days where you just totally blow it? That was yesterday for me. It started off ok. Well, I didn’t get my Shakeology made until after 10. Got distracted and finally realized I was getting a headache from low blood sugar. Once I had my shake I immediately started feeling better, but then my whole eating schedule was off. Made rice cake soup (it’s a Korean thing) for my family and was going to eat something different, but there ended up being a lot of soup (there’s no recipe, just dump in ingredients) so I decided to just have that. That was the beginning of the end. I find that when I eat processed foods, like the rice cakes in the soup, I don’t feel satisfied and end up wanting to eat more and more. I also didn’t drink enough water and thirst can be mistken for hunger.

So, I ate way too many calories, felt sluggish all day (except for the few hours between my Shakeoloy and the soup) and skipped my workout. Not good. At least now I can look back and see where the train started to derail so I can avoid another day like that. It’s all about learning from our mistakes and moving on. There’s no point in beating ourselves up and wasting time feeling sorry for ourselves. We all slip. The ones who are successful in the end are the ones who get back on track and don’t give up. We don’t fail unless we quit trying