Today is Father’s Day so of course I’m thinking about my dad. He passed away about 5 years ago and even though we didn’t talk everyday I still miss him. Growing up in my crazy house, visiting him and his wife every weekend was the one piece of normality I had. All I wanted was for him to be proud of me. I know there were plenty of things about my personality he just didn’t get and I wasn’t good at some of the things I think he hoped I would be, like golf, but I did feel that pride when I did well in school and kept myself out of trouble…most of the time. On those occasions when I did get out of line he didn’t yell or scream or worse, he just told me how disappointed he was. That was much more effective than anything else he could’ve done.

I always knew he was concerned about my weight. He tried to do something about it and get me to be more active, but there’s only so much a parent can do when they see their child once a week. Divorce, it’s not good. Avoid it. When I was in my late teens, I lost about 100lbs over the course of a year. He was SO proud of me. I could feel it like it was a tangible thing. Slowly but surely, I gained it back plus more…a lot more. When he came to visit (mostly to see his grandkids ha ha) I could tell it made him sad. I never felt that he didn’t love me, but I could see the disappointment in his eyes…not with me, but with the way my life was going. I wish he was alive now so he could see I’m back on track and helping others, too. I know he would be proud. 

Everyday I need something to motivate me. Most of the time I just keep telling myself, “50lbs, 50lbs, 50lbs,” but today I’m doing it for my dad.

10:40am Breakfast – 12oz water and 2 Beachbody Slimming Formula tablets, Chocolate Shakeology made with 4oz water, 4oz 1% milk, 1 scoop Shakeology Fiber Boost, a little coconut extract and 3 ice cubes

1:00pm Snack – 1/2c low-fat cottage cheese

2:15pm – 12oz water

3:10pm WORKOUT (and an egg which I scarfed down just before starting) TurboFire HIIT15, FIRE55EZ and FIRE45 OH YEAH!!!  30oz water and 1 scoop or half a serving of P90X Results & Recovery Formula in some of it while doing 45

6:20pm Lunch – 12oz water and 2 Slimming Formula tablets, Chocolate Shakeology made with 8oz 1% milk, 1 scoop Shakeology Fiber Boost, 1 tsp instant coffee and 3 ice cubes – I didn’t do mocha because I was tired, but because it’s delicious

8:45pm Dinner – 12oz water with 2 Slimming Formula tablets, Guacamole Turkey Burger from Carl’s Jr. that my family brought home for me even though I didn’t ask for it. Other than the high sodium, it’s actually quite healthy for fast food…and tasty.

11:30pm Snack – 7oz Strawberries and 1 Fiber One Brownie, 12oz water

Total calories consumed – 1404 Total calories burned – 3985

Protein – 107g, Carbs – 167g, Fat – 39g, Fiber – 33g

Water – 90oz

Last day before 2nd weigh-in! Results with photos coming shortly!

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