Archive for May 26, 2011


Dear Food,

We’ve been together a long time and let’s be honest, it’s been a rocky relationship. I feel like there are some things I really need to get off my chest. Part of me wishes I could just end this and move on, but let’s face it, I can’t live without you. It’s not you, it’s me. I’ve just had a really hard time figuring out how to be in this relationship without screwing things up. You’ve always been there for me, willing to provide everything I need. But too often I’ve taken you for granted and didn’t see you for what you are – helpful, kind and caring. You’ve wanted nothing but the best for me. You’ve wanted to not only give me strength to get through my days, but pure enjoyment. I haven’t appreciated that, though, and used you…only taking advantage of your “naughty” side…and it’s really gotten me in trouble.

I’m sorry for all the times I’ve hidden our relationship because I was embarrassed to be seen with you. I guess I didn’t want people to see how messed up our relationship had become so early on. And then there were the times I was selfish and kept you all to myself not wanting to share you with the others in my life. Let’s not forget the jealousy. When I did see you with others I couldn’t just let them enjoy you and be ok with it. I had to have you, too. Can you blame me, though? You always look so tempting.

You’ve done so much for me, but I know I’ve taken advantage of you. Instead of seeing you as the complete, wonderful thing that you are I’ve used you, only wanting to get a quick fix, and completely ignored how great you can be if given the chance. You’ve always been there when I’ve been sad, lonely or stressed out, but then I’ve basically ignored you when everything is fine. Sure, we’ve been together, but I haven’t payed enough attention to you day in and day out. Instead of giving you the time and attention you deserved, I only thought of you when I absolutely had to instead of looking forward to our time together. All those brief interludes in the kitchen with me spending as little time with you as possible just trying to get what I thought I needed instead of sitting down with you, giving you 100% of my attention and really enjoying you. Or the times we’ve been hanging out on the couch, me knowing you were there, but focussing so much on the TV I didn’t even realize how much I was taking from you without giving you the proper attention.

Treating you this way has not helped me at all. It’s just alienated us and, in a way, made me hate you. I know I shouldn’t feel that way, especially since I brought it all on myself. The more I’ve abused our relationship the less I want to think about you and everything you are to me because I feel like I don’t remember how to have a healthy relationship. I don’t like spending time with you anymore because I’ve forgotten how great we used to be together. There were those good times when I respected you and allowed you to give me just what I needed without treating you like a pile of junk.

Maybe we can get back to that again. I know you forgive me. You always do. I just need to forgive myself and give you the time and energy you deserve and to stop acting as though you’re only good for a cheap high or a quick thrill. I know now that those things don’t last and I always end up feeling guilty afterward. There’s so much more to you. You have amazing qualities that not only are fulfilling, but that last without making me feel bad. Sure, occasionally it’s ok for us to indulge a bit, but that’s not what a healthy relationship is based on.  From now on we’ll spend more quality time together, ok? And I know that the more I learn about you, the better our relationship will be. I’m sure that once I don’t feel guilty because I’ve taken advantage of you I won’t feel the need to hide you or be jealous when I see other people enjoying you. Once I start caring for you the way you care for me we can be happy again. I know we can make this work.

Love,

Me

Woke up this morning READY for breakfast! Day 3, hump day. Still feeling great despite a bit of muscle soreness. I’m ok with it though. It’s “good” pain.

8:00am – Breakfast – 8oz lowfat cottage cheese and 2 pineapple rings. I didn’t think that would really fill me up, but a whole cup of cottage cheese is actually quite a lot. And I do believe my body is getting used to smaller portions again. The dinner I had last night seemed like a ton of food!

9:00am – Back to bed for the rest of my 8 hours of sleep. Such a wonderful luxury! Have I mentioned how much I love working from home as an Independent Team Beachbody Coach?

2:00pm – First snack, after being up for about an hour talking to people online. 1 zucchini and 3 small carrots (the plan called for 1 large so I improvised) with 2Tbs. fat-free dressing. I chose Italian because I decided not to buy Ranch since I haven’t really found a fat-free version that I like. My friend who’s doing this with me made her own.

4:15pm – I was busy getting Shakeology samples ready to send out and before I knew it, it was almost time to take the kids to karate. There was no way I would have had time to make the baked potato that was planned for lunch and get to eat it so I decided to have my second snack before we left. Greenberry Shakeology made with 1c. skim milk, 1/2 fresh strawberries (frozen would work just fine, too) and 3 ice cubes. It was pretty good, but I have to admit I will always be partial to Chocolate. I’m really curious and excited to see what the new flavor will be when it comes out this summer!

6:30pm – As soon as we returned from karate I started some quinoa using a method I found on this site. About 15 minutes before it was done I cooked chicken tenderloins in a large skillet with just a quick spray of Pam and some kosher salt. Then I cubed/shredded the chicken into small pieces. I was supposed to use black beans to go with the quinoa, but realized I didn’t have any. I did, however, have some fat-free refried beans which worked just fine, too. Instead of making tacos I used the ingredients, pico de gallo, low-fat sour cream, avocado, those great low-carb whole wheat tortillas and cilantro, to make burritos which were a hit with my kids. (My husband said he already had burritos earlier that day so he got the leftover salmon from yesterday with some of the quinoa…which he ate!!!…and sauted green beans.) I had the quinoa, which was seasoned with salt, pepper and garlic powder, on the side with the beans I didn’t put in the burrito and a little extra pico de gallo.

10:10pm – Once the kids were in bed I started my workout, FIRE55EZ and Stretch 10. This is the same combo from Day 1 and even though it’s not easy, it’s certainly easier than the combo from Day 2. Even still, about 20 minutes in I was thinking about how there’s a provision if you’re feeling really tired to just do 20 minutes of 55EZ. I was tempted. Then I remembered that my friend who’s doing this with me finished the whole thing in the morning and I couldn’t let her beat me. That’s one of the great things about having a fitness buddy. You always push each other to do more.

12:15am – Last meal. This would’ve been lunch if I hadn’t taken that much needed nap. Heaven on a plate. Baked (technically microwaved) potato with 1 slice of low-fat cheddar cheese, 1 Tbs. low-fat sour cream, 1 slice of turkey bacon all nice and crispy, green onion (scallion) and chives fresh from my friend’s garden. She also gave me some fresh rosemary which I will be using on Day 5. When choosing a fitness buddy it’s always nice to pick one with a garden. Just sayin’.

Since I was a bit busier than usual today, I’m posting most of this at the end of the day and don’t quite remember when or how much water I drank. I’m fairly certain that if I have at least another 20oz I’ll be ok. Last night I had some Stash mango passionfruit tea with a packet of Truvia which was basically perfection. Maybe I’ll do that again tonight, too.

If you’d like to see the master shopping list for one person to do the 5-Day Inferno plan it’s here. See you tomorrow!!

Day 1

Day 2

Day 4